Sugarcoating...

My apologies if the last post came off as a bit of a whine. White middle-class woman in full time employment has a bit of a moan, poor me. I guess it's one of my issues with facebook - people only tend to post the positive stuff, giving the rest of us a skewed version of reality. Anyway, it's how I feel - quite lonely at times, and weary as the pandemic comes up to a year. Last night, the Cog popped out for a socially-distant bag of chips with an ex-work colleague, and it felt incredibly odd to have the house all to myself. The almost-feral cat isn't exactly company - in fact, he's mostly a nuisance, as he communicates by shredding carpets. What a turnaround - time was, I savoured having the house to myself. A chance to watch a few more episodes of Outlander or somesuch. I ended up hanging parts of the chenille pullover on the machine - I'm going to use the Japanese machine as a linker, because I can't motivate myself to destroy my eyesight sewing it up by hand! 

I think the pandemic will change my socialising permanently, and probably not for the better. Meeting others in real life is now a source of anxiety. Zoom's fine as far as it goes, but it's kind of 2D! 

What's bugging me right now? The lack of incidental exercise is having a detrimental effect on my back - over the last six months, my sleep has deteriorated to a few hours a night, because sleeping with what feels like a large bruise at the base of my spine makes staying comfortable tricky. How to keep active inside a 3 bed house? It's not really big enough indoors to engender much movement. I've not left the house since Tuesday (unless you count five minutes putting the bins out!). As relatives all announce their vaccination appointments, we are excluded for being underage - I do accept we're least at risk as we could quite easily only leave the house for food. FOMO indeed. I have a second lockdown birthday looming - last year's was lockdown Monday, not a date I'll forget in a hurry. Actually, I came down with a 24 hour fever in 2019, so that birthday got postponed too. I'm overdue a good one, but alas it'll be 2022 when there's a zero on the end. Not sure I want to admit that! :D The weather's been windy and pretty chilly - roll on Spring getting a proper foothold.

On the positive side, the Cog has kept us supplied with home-made bread. Last year I finally feel like I became knowledgeable enough to say I've mastered the Passap, though it'll still have me scratching my head more than the Japanese machines. We've both come to appreciate our house much more, and to enjoy nature unfolding constantly around us. The electric bill has gone up by a fiver a month - not sure if that's down to my using the tumble dryer as a "heater" in the Cog's "office", or our computers and monitors being on more. Probably the latter - we're making no more washing than we ever were. 

Right, well I better get motivated and get up! 

Current mood:  exhausted